coming back

I've been away for the past weeks...
I thought of leaving the blog world but it seems like my mind is taking me back here...
I've been so occupied with a lot of things that should be done.
I just hope that I could still perform them all...

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Things are getting better for me..
I just found out that my ex-boyfriend is now making his moves to win the heart of this girl he met at a seminar when we attended last month...
At first it was really surprising...
He kept on denying it until the day that he could not anymore lie to me about what he feels for her. I was hurt but now I'm trying to be stronger than before.
What the heck! There's a lot of guys better than him... And I'm so damn pretty to cry over a guy who doesn't even know what he wants in life. Duh???!
(In Psychology that's what you call rationalization. A form of defense mechanism. :)

anniversary...

September 1, 2003


I have found someone to love...
I thought he was the one...
I thought it was for real...
It really seemed so true...
I was so happy...
I was so contented...
The first time that I felt so secured after such a long time...





September 1, 2004

Exam day...
I'm confused...
I'm aware that I'm just waiting for something that would never be mine again...
It really hurts..
The pain goes with my blood, circulating all over my body that it became a part of me...
A part of who I am and what will I become...
But I have to accept it and move on...


I just hope that I could handle each day as if I'm a new person starting a new life in the same old sorrowful world..
Life is so beautiful...
I don't want to waste mine...
I want to live my life to the fullest... :)