ang saya mabuhay...
sana laging ganito... :)

unwell

Matchbox 20
Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why


But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind


But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away


But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

this is the way i am

I hate the world today,
You're so good to me I know but I can't change.
Tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath.
Innocent and Sweet.
Yesterday I cried.
Must have been relieved to see the softer side.
I can understand how you'd be so confused.
I don't envy you.
I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one.

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child,
I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner,
I'm a saint.
I do not feel ashamed.
I'm your hell,
I'm your dream I'm nothing in between.
You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

So take me as I am.
This may mean You'll have to be a stronger man,
rest assured that when I start to make you nervous and I'm going to extremes.
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch,
I'm a lover,
I'm a child,
I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner,
I'm a saint.
I do not feel ashamed.
I'm your hell,
I'm your dream I'm nothing in between.
You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

Just when you think you got me figured out the season's already changing. I think its cool, you do what you do and don't try to save me.

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover, I'm a child, I'm a mother, I'm a sinner, I'm a saint. I do not feel ashamed. I'm your hell, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between. You know you wouldn't want it any other way.

I'm a bitch,
I'm a tease,
I'm a goddess on my knees.
When you hurt, when you suffer I'm your angel undercover.
I've been numb, I'm revived.
Can't say I'm not alive.
You know I wouldn't want it any other way.

sakit

i woke this morning not feeling well...
kainis... (para kong asthmatic)
i still attended my classes because of the long quizzes i wouldn't wanna miss...
coming to scholl was worth it..
i'm just so happy... :)
the whole day went really good for me.. :)
haaaaaaayyyyyy......
if only i could have spend more time with that dude....
sana mas naging maganda ang araw ko... ;)

me...

Tired...
Exhausted...
Anxious...
Frustrated...
Sad...
Alone...
Stupid????


damn! i need to rest my physical,mental and emotional state...

text

Umaga na... Pero madilim pa...
Alas-dos palang kasi...
Kakagising ko lang...
Mas maaga kesa sa kinasanayan...
Maaga din kasi ako natulog eh..
Kala ko magtutuloy na hanggang sa tamang oras ng paggising ko para pumasok ng skwelahan...
Isang text message ang gumising sa matagal ng tulog kong isipan...



"hndi po totoong wla akong pagmamahal syo..
hindi po un mwwla, hindi lang po cguro katulad ng dati, kz ayokong mging unfair at madisapoint ka ulit sa kin.."

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TORN
Natalie Imbruglia


I thought I saw a man brought to life

He was warm, he came around like he was dignified

He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored

You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for

But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie

My conversation has run dry

That's whats going on, nothing's fine I'm torn



I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

You're a little late, I'm already torn



So I guess the fortune teller's right

Should have seen just what was there and not some holy light

To crawl beneath my veins and now

I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much

There's just so many things that I can't touch, I'm torn



I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

You're a little late, I'm already torn. Torn.



There's nothing where he used to lie

My inspiration has run dry

That's what's going on, nothings right, I'm torn



I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel

I'm cold and I'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor

You're a little late, I'm already torn.

another song for a friend...
thanx for sticking up with me kahit lagi kita inaaway dati...
I'm thankful coz God gave me a wonderful blessing...
Kahit magkaibigan lang tayo okay lang.. :)
Mr.Booter...
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MUNTIK NA KITANG MINAHAL
The Company

May sikreto akong
Sasabihin sa'yo
Mayroong nangyaring
Hindi mo alam
Ito'y isang lihim
Itinagong kay tagal
Muntik na kitang minahal


'Di ko noon nakayang
Ipadama sa'yo
ang nararamdaman
ng pusong ito
At hangang ngayon
Ay naaalala pa
Muntik na kitang minahal


Nagayon ay aaminin ko
Na sana nga ay tayong dalawa
Bawat tanong mo'y iniwasan ko
Akala ang pag-ibig mo'y di totoo
Di ko alam kung anong nangyari
Damdamin ko sa 'yoy hindi ko nasabi


Hangang ang puso mo'y napagod
Sa paghihintay kay tagal
Saka ko lang naisip
Muntik na kitang minahal

Our Love

This song really makes me wanna fall inlove again and again and again.... I'm really looking forward to that day when I would be happily singing this with the one meant for me...
But now that I'm still waiting for that guy, I'll share this first with the one who's always been there for me...
Dude, this song is for you... :) Love yah! :)

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Your Love
by Alamid

you're the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you're the one that i can't wait to see
with you here by my side i'm in ecstasy


i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see


your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside


every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we've been through
in my mind i can't believe it's true
but in my heart the reality is you


i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see


your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

bagong buhay

Bagong Buhay


Sabi ni mars_volta, isang matalik ng kaibigan sa chat, gumawa na daw ako ng mga posts na masaya.
Yung mga bagay na hindi makakapagpalungkot sa akin.
para daw makawala na ko sa alaala ng aking ex.. :)
Natawa ako sa sinabi nya pero eto susundin ko pa rin.
may katwiran nga naman sya. Nailabas ko na nga ang mga sama ng loob ko pero ako mismo hindi makalabas sa maliit na mundo na ginawa ko sa blog na ito.
At bakit ba nga naman ako magpapakapagod pa na sabihin ang mga bagay na yun kahit na alam kong hindi rin naman nya mababasa?

Kaya simula ngayon, bagong buhay, bagong posts, bagong emosyon at bagong pananaw sa buhay.. :)

Salamat, mars.. :)

on my own

my childhood friend and i used to sing this song...
something that would remind us of "DAWSON'S CREEK"... :)

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"On My Own"

On my own
Pretending he’s beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I loose my way
I close my eyes and he has found me

In the rain
The pavement shines like silver
All the lights
Are misty in the river
In the darkness
The trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me
Forever and forever

And I know
It’s only in my mind
That I’m talking to myself
And not to him
And although
I know that he is blind
Still I say
There’s a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He’s gone
The river’s just a river

Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare
And everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I’m learning
All my life
I’ve only been pretending

Without me
His world will go on turning
The world is full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

my fault

"sorry na..."

Matagal nasara ang isip ko sa mga bagay na maaaring totoo...
Maaari nga palang ako ang may kasalanan...
Pwede nga palang dapat ko lang maramdaman ang sakit dahil sa mga kalungkutan na naipasa ko sa 'yo...
Ngayon humihingi ako ng paumanhin sa lahat ng mga nagawa kong kamalian sa ating dalawa...
Sana mahanap mo na ang kaligayahan ng nararapat sa isang taong mapagmahal na tulad mo...
Ngayon, malaya ka na...
Huwag mong sayangin ang oras at pagkakataon na nasa iyo...


Salamat sa lahat, Janelle...

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The Reason
Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know


I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you


I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear


I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You


I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know


I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you


I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

tropa

Para sa inyo na mga hindi ako pinabayaan...


Grow Old With You


I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

nawala

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Kapag may nawala sa'yo may dadating na kapalit...
Maaaring mas higit pa sa nawala...
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DON'T SPEAK (E. Stefani, G. Stefani)

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end

It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real,
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry


It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me
I can see us dying ... are we?

dude!

SAYA..
maiksing salita..
malalim ang kahulugan..
pero nararamdaman ko na ulit 'to.
masaya ako ngayon!
unti-unti ng napapalitan ang lungkot ng saya.
salamat sa mga taong andyan para tulungan ako.
Mga totoo kong kaibigan..
Mga pare ko, SALAMAT!!!!!!